Been forever since I've taken time and made an entry, as you can see. New with me, hmmm, well I was dating a guy name Dustin Dunson and that ended and I'm happy on that one, and then another guy named Dusten but with an E came along and thought I was an interesting person, that shocks me sometimes, but any who we hung out and I had a great time, he is a nice guy and really smart, we aren't dating, I dont' believe he likes me in that way, I guess thats ok. Then one night I was at wonderful Tom's and hung out with Caleb Cline, I had forgotten how much I liked him, he asked for my phone number and we talked for a while and then he asked me out, I was happy, maybe this time it would work, but I had 3 awesome friends told me some stuff that they had heard from his own mouth and it made me wonder, so I confronted the situation and found out that he didn't remeber a lot of the shit he said and that he didn't know what he wanted, man was I crushed once again I got my hopes up and they got broken. I guess I can always be he friend, it would never work out for him and I, he was have to change some of his shit, but you know what forget that because I don't expect him to change because I should be able to take him for the way he is but I'm not willing to, so I guess it wouldn't. I'll have to move on like I have before. One good thing did come out of that night, well two, I'm not saying the one but I did get to see Andy, yes Andy Heck, I love that boy dearly, and I'm glad I got to see him, and of course the one person that always seems to make my night, Nikolai, whenever I see him it makes me happy but then I also know that nothing would probally ever happen between him and I and that sucks, I've liked him since last year, but at least I have him as a awesome friend. Wow this is long, work is going good, I'm going to be something like a waitress which should be fun, I hope, umm I'm living with my dad, because I'm tired of dealing with my mom's problems when I'm pnly 16, I can't do it all, I'm sorry. I had a great birthday, simple, thats how I like it. I believe I'm done here, all I have to say is I love my friends and I hope they know that, I love my new friends because they are awesome to talk to. Thanks for taking time and reading.

-Samantha

Christmas was great, I didn't get a lot which made me happy. All my brothers and sisters and my two nephews were there, which was fun, but I coud tell there was some tension between my brother and my two sisters, but no one is dead. I went and stayed with my sister and it was a lot of fun, we went to some really neat shoppes and most of the stiff there cost to much so I didn't bother to buy anything. I went a party and it was a lot of fun I met a lot of people and I wish I didn't have to live that night. I got home and nothing anything happened, it was one when I went to bed so I didn't wake up till 11. My good friend Emillee came over and we went to the mall and nothing really awesome happened but I bought the Killers- Hot Fuss cd, and thats all I've been listening to, my brother got me a goft card to FYE, so it came in handy. I'm home now and my brother had two friends over and Krumel took my shoes and I went to chase him and the dog was in the way so I tired to jump over and when I did I ended up falling real hard on the floor, and we have hard wood floors at my Dads', so now my backs really hurts and so does my armpit, I'll live. I guess I'm to try to fall asleep. Good night or Good morning!

I've been staying at my Dads' for the past two weeks and it seems like things a lot less stressful. I kinda got in a fight with my mom because all I had was seven dollars for cat and dog food, and I had a 50, but I really didn't want to spend it, I'm 15 and I really don't think it's my job to be paying for it, but who knows, I almost want to move in with my Dad but I would miss my dogs, cat, and my awesome room to much. I'm confused on what to do, but I'm happy because all these doctors said I was depressed but to me I think its just stress and there is a lot of it because I make it and a lot comes from my mom, so I stopped taking the medication and I feel better.